31 weeks

Only 9 more weeks to go!!! wow.. time sure flies even when you're stuck in the middle of nowhere.

Let's start at the... beginning.

On July 25, 2009 - my now 31 week old embryo was conceived. Was it his little going away present to me?? When I first discovered my situation - I was shocked, all alone in another country - with no friends, no family and I couldn't even take a swig of whiskey to comfort me... 31 weeks later, I'm on top of the world. I couldn't be any more happier. Granted, I am now 20 kilos heavier and more moody than Scrooge on Christmas day - but I'm happy beyond words. To feel my child moving around inside of me is the most amzing thing I've ever felt. To be overwhlemed by all these emotions - LOVE especially - for someone that I have yet to meet is unexplainable.

I have so many many plans for the two of us - and I can't wait to watch you, my little angel, grow. I can't wait for your first smile, your first tooth... and even your first poop... hahahaha.

Being a single parent, I presume, is going to be difficut. I'm already stressing over finances - and wondering if I'm even going to get another job to support the two of us. But, even now, even now you give me so much hope. My little blessing.